Dust to Dust: A Broken Fairy Tale by S. P. Cervantes

Author:S. P. Cervantes [Cervantes, S. P.]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Amazon: B00IRBXXWG
Published: 2014-03-02T00:00:00+00:00

I roll over to see Holden sitting at the edge of the bed, looking penitently out the window. I sit up, taking the sheets with me, and rest my head against his bare back, wrapping my hands around his naked waist. He flinches at first at my touch, but then takes in a deep breath, reaching over for my hands, pulling them tighter around him. I love him.

“Sorry I fell asleep.” I kiss his muscular back. “Are you okay, Holden? You look upset.” My heart is racing at the thought that he regrets what happened between us tonight. Things went further than I ever wanted when I first got here. Well, that’s not true; I think deep down I’ve wanted this since I laid eyes on him again, but I never thought that it would have been possible after Holden found out everything. My only fear right now is getting too close, too fast with him again. I have to be careful with Holden this time. I can’t let him hurt me again.

Everything seems so perfect right now, but I can feel my heart instinctively retreat the more time we spend together this way. There is a battle going on inside me that I can’t control. Controlling things has been what has kept me sane through all of the shit in my life. There is a spiraling ball of lust, love, need, desire, comfort, peace, and fear when he is near me like this. I ache for him again, and that ache is starting to make me close myself off.

I go against what my body is begging for me to do and pull away from Holden’s embrace. Slow—I need to take things slow. But with each perfectly placed touch, and each desire-filled kiss, I fall deeper and deeper into love with him. I feel things for him that I never have with Marcus, or anyone for that matter, and at times it feels like I can’t control how much I love him. I need to have that control. It is all too much too fast.

So many emotions have been stirred up with seeing Jake again, and now with the threatening letter, it may all become too much for Holden, too. He can walk away at any time, no strings attached. He’s lived his entire adult life as a jet-setting bachelor, with girls falling at his feet everywhere he goes. I’m nothing but a divorced mother of two who’s fallen for her childhood sweetheart. None of that matters. He’s my soul mate, my best friend.

Holden looks up at me and sweeps my hair behind my ear, making me wonder what the hell I must look like right now. I begin gathering my hair and tie it back in a bun, knowing the horrendous bed head I get in the morning. Holden swats my hands away from my hair and shakes it out with his fingers; it is a very intimate yet innocent gesture that touches my heart. He has always liked my hair down best.

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